Kelly has worked with a variety of horses and people throughout the country before settling in West Virginia. There I was forced to read it to complete strangers. In one specific family session, my therapist said, Dont you think it was really your fault for drinking, therefore you got raped because you put yourself in that situation? According to the. and says he wishes to take his favorite girls on a private jet to his ranch. Brooke is the mother of two boys currently attending college. I would also consider the fact that there have been multiple drug problems where girls have brought things in so if you want a safe environment, this is not the place. I think because we did not have it as bad as other places, and especially because I did not want my parents to feel bad, I made myself believe it was not so bad. Sheila lives to travel and was fortunate to live in Europe as well as visit most of its countries many times. He is still in charge of the school and featured on the website. Greenbrier Academy is a wonderful school for girls in grades 9-12. She provides the focus, passion and direction necessary to move a program as unique as ours forward; and the experience and training to ensure our girls achieve genuinely transformative experiences. worked as the Headmaster of Greenbrier until 2014. I have openly told staff and leaders of the school how much I hated it and how I was signing out when I turned 18 and in return I was threatened without my parents awareness. I was threatened to be sent to the homeless shelter with $5 if I were to sign out. the only positive aspect of this place was meeting girls in similar situations as you, but overall its a unhelpful environment to get therapy in and i felt like i was in juvie Quinton (Yelp), 2019: (SURVIVOR) Everything they say on the website is a complete lie. I was threatened to be sent to the homeless shelter with $5 if I were to sign out. It was there that she developed the interest and dedication to the equine species while working with a variety of breeds and disciplines. This is messed up because your therapist decides your home visits and when you leave so if you have a bad therapist, be prepared to be extended. Currently, Sheri is a successful Personal Life Coach and Workshop Facilitator. If you are in an urgent situation and need help call 911. Sheila was drawn to Greenbrier Academy for Girls because of her personal connection to the mission and purpose of GBA. She would give my parents advice and shame them for giving me an allowance and paying for my phone bill because her children paid for themselves. During those years I went through a sexual assault and had to repeat my Freshman year. They are also given computer privileges, but for schoolwork only. you wanna save you kid? Traveling the world was a dream she hoped to make reality. Adoption / Attachment Alcohol & Drug Abuse Anger Issues Anxiety Depression Art Behavioral Issues Body Dysmorphic Disorder BPD . Restraining a minor with PTSD should be a crime. , as a student who was there for 2 years, get the hell out, get your child out, dont sent them here. 3, Pence Springs, WV 24962. . They can only go off-campus for community service. (25 to Life: Ep 2 Breaking Code Silence), Troubled Teen Industry. A group of girls on higher levels were selected to be on the Council, where they spy on girls and decide when they can move up or be moved down in the levels. Until I had a clean drug test show up, I was treated as if I was snorting pills. In August I woke up from a nightmare (I have PTSD) to find two huge people in my bedroom, a man and a woman. Her dissertation research and oral defense focused on the "Efficacy of Mentorship Programs within the Commonwealth of Virginia and the Impact on Teacher Retention.". I was not able to address any of my adoption related issues in the 8 months I was there. In the United States, thousands of young people reside in private schools aimed at reforming 'troubled teens'. what i am experiancing is what i would call abuse along with a dirty living environment and unfit therapists along with staff. He and his wife, Laura, ran the African Drumming Program, including the performance group. Prior to joining Greenbrier Academy, Dr. Bush dedicated 22 years in the English secondary education classroom and continues her dedication to the field of education, her passion for inspiring student success, and love of lifelong learning here at Greenbrier. My therapist would overshare with me about her husband, her children, her childhood. On this level, residents are permitted to walk on the track that surrounds the school. Serving as both our art teacher and drumming coordinator, her inventiveness is put to good use at our school. Ashley holds a Bachelors of Social Work with a Minor in Pre-Law & Legal Studies from Concord University and a Masters of Social Work from Concord University. In researching now during the Breaking Code Silence movement, I found out even scarier things. Wendy Eddy sums up her philosophy with a quote from Leo Buscalia: CounselingCertainly this is what counseling is; A process, not of my wanting to make you over in my own image, as I would desire you; but, my wanting to lead you back to yourself, to what you are, to your uniqueness, to your original beauty.. the only positive aspect of this place was meeting girls in similar situations as you, but overall its a unhelpful environment to get therapy in and i felt like i was in juvie , Everything they say on the website is a complete lie. We were put on solos, where they blindfolded and separated us from each otherwe did not know how long it would last. Greenbrier Christian Academy is standing behind its staff in the wake of a lawsuit alleging a kindergarten teacher failed to see at least three young boys sexually assault a 5-year-old girl on. Community meetings were used to shame girls under the facade of concern. before theyre made to feel that theyre the reason nobody does. A group of girls on higher levels were selected to be on the Council, where they spy on girls and decide when they can move up or be moved down in the levels. A former kindergarten teacher and present creative and performing artist, Larissa believes wholeheartedly in the powers of creativity, exploration, play, messiness, vulnerability and interpersonal human connection. A lofty goal! We found out Greenbrier is not even listed in his name, due to the number of times he has been sued. Ashley enjoys spending her free time with her family, friends and pets, crafting, cooking, reading, going on drives and listening to music. The program was pretty much based around drum circleswhich were divided into groups depending on how well you drummed. Outside of Greenbrier, she enjoys spending time with her husband, twin boys and two daughters while pursuing her undergraduate degree in Special Education. Perhaps dearest to her heart was the design and creation of our Healing Village Retreat, which she still lovingly facilitates to this day. I wasnt allowed contact with anyone except for monitored calls to my parents. She believes that the very principles which guide true horsemanship skills are also the premise of virtuous life skills. On this level, the resident is closely monitored by staff and is allowed no communication with the outside world, other than in family-therapy calls. Seneca Health Services is a locally based provider with a holistic approach to mental health treatment and substance abuse. Paul is a U.S. Army veteran and former police officer. While I appreciate your feedback, we have a child with clinical issues and living at home is not an option. I had barely any communication with my parents to help me with the process. Thank you for your continued support and understanding of our . Her experience at The Greenbrier included updating content for multiple websites, coordinating on and off-site events, photography and brochure creation for multimillion-dollar luxury homes as well as directly supervising the sales office administrative staff. the therapists were very judgmental and often emphasized girls problems or blamed it on their parents instead of trying to find actual solutions. Martha has been intrigued by languages and cultures since childhood. As Buck Brannaman, a renowned horseman/clinician has said; Horses and life: its all the same to me.. Over the years he has tried many versions of his programs, from calling them survival schools to what is now his latest approach to troubled teens called Therapeutic Boarding School for Girls in WV -An article in WV news from 2011. A study abroad experience in Costa Rica helped Martha come to a deeper understanding of Hispanic culture while being immersed in the Spanish language. He has helped so many children and adults, but he says its his mission/desire to help at least 250,000 people in his lifetime. In yet another, they have to hike a mile while holding a large rock which supposedly represents their emotional burdens. Motivated by her love of travel, she studied abroad for some time at Santa Reparata International School of Art in Florence, Italy. I personally dont recomend wasting money on sending your child here because ive bearly seen people come out and be as you would call normal I stayed in my bed and didnt go anywhere for over a month till i convinced the staff to send me to another center . -I believe Greenbrier academy had a phase based system as well as trails, if you were on good behavior, you would earn more privileges. Kristen holds bachelors degrees in biology and history from Concord University. In the summer of 2012, I was depressed and angry, feuding with my parents, not sleeping, eating, or taking my meds. kids are abused, manipulated, and gaslighted, and taught everything wrong. The students are out of control and instead of trying to work with the students to find out how to help them and make everyone come together they just put up cameras and make things strict and take everything away. A little kid could get As in the classes. First, I was sent to Greenbrier Academy in WV, run by LJay Mitchell who has had multiple law suits for being responsible for kids deaths at his wilderness program. In another, they are buried alive. I have heard from others that these Wilderness programs have ties to theraputic schools. Feb 3, . He then left to create a new program, Alldredge Academy in 1999. We have engaged an education consultant and are evaluating a few potential schools. Misty joined Greenbrier Academy as a Residential Advisor in 2017. Dr. Bush holds a Bachelors Degree in English from the University of North Carolina at Wilmington, a Masters Degree in Secondary English Education from the University of Phoenix, a Doctoral Degree in Education Curriculum and Instruction and Educational Leadership from the University of Phoenix. I could not even walk around the entire campus alone for 2 weeks or even have an ipod for almost 7. I had a gut instinct to get my daughter out of there before the year . i am picked on and bullied by students and staff constantly and i cannot wait to leave Anonymous (Niche), 12/29/2017: (SURVIVOR) Did not prepare me for the real world. My parents were completely shocked and appalled at all the lies the school told them and have even said they wish I was never sent there. worked as an Nurse at Greenbrier. My home life was a mess at the time; my mom had cancer and my dad was never around. It was a struggle, and sometimes still is, to enter back into society and be independent after all of this, and I was so embarrassed by the whole ordeal. Jessica has completed an Associates degree from University of Phoenix in Health Care Administration and Medical Records. I could tell they felt bad for us. I have been receiving therapy after GBA to treat the PTSD & Boarding School Syndrome I have from the school. I have been receiving therapy after GBA to treat the PTSD & Boarding School Syndrome I have from the school. These were the least beneficial months of my life. Neurofeedback Technician/Assistant Medical Coordinator. Without them, the school would not be functioning. She enjoys practicing yoga, cooking and trying new things. Staff is not helpful but instead judgmental and i did not feel safe or cared about in this environment in the slightest, please look into better boarding schools that will benefit your daughter, thank you , I was a past student at Greenbrier and coming out of the woods i did think the school was very good but after being there for 8 months and it being my 7th treatment center and it was the worst out of all, the teachers didnt seem to conect with many of the kids or they would push their problems to the side if it interferes with what their doing, the new staff they got in the last few months dont seem qualified to work with us they were very disrespectful at times and although there was some great staff theres only about 5 good ones left so its a very bad combo and the treatment center treats kids like were in a behavioral facility with the way they handle situations, the therapists dont work with the clients and will cancel meetings and avoid the kids if they dont want to do sessions. Prior to Greenbrier, Lisa worked with at risk youth as a home-based therapist and as a private practice clinician with a focus on holistic, integrative treatments and family systems interventions. Rather than learning skills to be successful when returning home, or wherever they go after Greenbrier Academy, they are taught how to survive at school. Anonymous (Niche), 11/18/2016: (PARENT) You child would be better off in a prison. Virtue ethics in practice: The Greenbrier Academy. It makes me sick that this DISGUSTING place still operates!! He and his wife Laura retired around 2015/2016. On Trust, residents can check-out their phone for 1.5 hours per day, and may use their iPod whenever they like. The program has a maximum enrollment of 54 girls, and the average length of stay is reported to be between 12 and 18 months. I was getting jumped at school and was self harming just about every day. Dr. Jewell graduated from the West Virginia University of medicine. There were some good people, I honestly loved the most RAs. Larissa has had significant firsthand experience in being a teen-aged girl and brings an abundance of compassion and heart to all of the families that she is so honored to work with at Greenbrier. staff lie to us, yell at us, invalidate us. They did weird therapy rituals, including something called brain spotting where my therapist tried to intimidate me into hypnosis to relive my rape. My parents finally listened to me through my subtle cries for help, but put me in a different program called Auldern Academy in NC. u/kimj0ng-illin (Reddit), 2/5/2018: (SURVIVOR) i am a student at the school currently and i feel like after being here for 2 years it is done helping me. He's listed in the Cambridge . As a Residential Advisor, she enjoys seeing girls not only on campus, but off campus as well, whether it be on an adventurous outing white water rafting or volunteering at a local nursing home. If you are LGBTQ and need support, call the Trevor Project Hotline 1-866-488-7386, If you are having suicidal thoughts, call toll free 1-800-273-8255 or text HOME to 741741, If you are a child being abused or know of a child being abused call toll free 1-800-422-4453. Dennis first worked with LJ Mitchell at SUWS in 1984. Mitchell believes that society doesnt care what happens to them because they are troubled and throwaways and that their parents are wealthy and are willing to pay thousands of dollars to send them to him for help. She has likewise completed studies in Imago Relationship Therapy (IRT), Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) support, animal communication and womens eating and body image topics. staff lie to us, yell at us, invalidate us. He previously worked at. Lisa received a Bachelor of Science in Psychology, as well as a certificate in Womens Studies from the University of Michigan and a Master of Science in Clinical Mental Health Counseling from Walden University. She strives to meet each student's unique educational needs and learning styles while challenging them to grow in their abilities to communicate in Spanish through listening, speaking, reading and writing. Its an overall lousy school and I would recommend ANY thing other than this. , Reposting since my reveiw was now deleted TWICE. As Greenbriers Executive Director, Rachel Call truly drives our program to be the best it can be. Overall terrible experience, send your kid elsewhere or maybe consider the fact that the educational consultants tell every parent after wilderness to not have their kid go home, not considering some kids are actually ready to go home. , an absolutely terrible experience i would not recommend to anyone. I would seriously consider sending them to another boarding school since most boarding schools are very structured and scheduled. My prior work with this age group has allowed me to work with a variety of young minds and grow as a teacher, Kristen says. The program was in a former WW2 womens prison and was super fucking creepy. What was not beneficial was not knowing how long I would be there, where I would be next, etc. It is a wonderful experience getting to mentor and help in the transformation process that these young women make when here. There is barely any connection to the real world so the girls are forced to focus on the drama occurring in the program. Journal of Theoretical and Philosophical Psychology 32(1): 35-42. He currently works in private practice. In another life, Tom was a working musician and music producer that toured within the US throughout his 20s. kids are abused, manipulated, and gaslighted, and taught everything wrong. She did not lie or steal and she did not harm herself or anyone else. Sheri has been a Certified Life Coach since 2005. if ('Greenbrier Denies All Charges') { document.write("By: Greenbrier Denies All Charges
"); } Susie Blankenship has worked as an Administrator at Greenbrier since 2011. Her hobbies include; photography, reading, rock collecting, astronomy, writing poetry and short stories. My mom worked hard to get me to graduate early due to the dishonesty, and incompetence of the school and they still have not given my family money back for a trip I was supposed to go on. They then arrive at a small lodge called the Village where they get saged at the door and must sleep on the floor. She is a certified Wound Nurse as well as ACLS and PALS certified. She says, My life has been changed in so many positive ways working here at GBA that I have truly been blessed.. This level typically lasts about 4 months. Together with her husband, they have two dogs, three adult sons and now three grandsons, whom she adores! with L-Jay back in the 90s. The students are out of control and instead of trying to work with the students to find out how to help them and make everyone come together they just put up cameras and make things strict and take everything away. Lindsay has been a part of the Greenbrier community since 2016. They tied my wrists with zip-ties and put the child-lock on and explained rudely we could either take a plane or we can drive ten hours. She enjoyed being a role model to the girls so much that, after leaving in 2014 to care for her daughter, she returned to her position in 2017. A girl kissed me during truth or dare and ten girls told on me, so I was not allowed to go home for Christmas. Everything there was bizarre, amongst teachers and therapists and heads of school all being married or related, all part of a specific Mormon sect, and all from Utah. This is the biggest lie. The only other time would be over Skype, with your parents and therapist. The tuition is reported to be around $42,000 per year. It is under his sons name. Dr. Todd Woodward oversees our entire neurofeedback program at Greenbrier. Until I had a clean drug test show up, I was treated as if I was snorting pills. I love helping students understand the significance of their voice and the integral part they play in our school and community. She feels lucky to teach in such an amiable environment alongside her devoted and compassionate coworkers. These are the true therapists of the school and are the few people actually there to help your daughter. there was no therapeutic environment whatsoever rather constant drama and tension among both staff and students which created a huge distraction from treatment. She enters students into art contests at the local Carnegie Hall and promotes their involvement in the charity event Empty Bowls. She also accompanies her drumming performance group to local schools, churches, festivals and private events in the area. He and his wife Laura retired around 2015/2016. I was also told that they could be very convincing when it comes to parents and when my parents decided to pull me that they would have a talk with them. He then founded Greenbrier Academy in 2007 and has worked as the Director/Owner ever since. Find a Great First Job to Jumpstart Your Career. They take advantage of parents that would do anything for their children. By rejecting non-essential cookies, Reddit may still use certain cookies to ensure the proper functionality of our platform. Rachel has three children with her husband of thirty years. Kelly enjoys nothing more than seeing people and horses connect and build a relationship. Dr. Todd has successfully removed harmful medications from kids daily routines, while reducing or eliminating their associated symptoms. She taught Spanish for six years in Ohio where she also had earned a BA in Spanish with a history minor and a MA in education. When someone has experienced the trauma of adversity in their past relationships with others, it may be easier for them to develop a relationship with a horse who relates to them in the present moment. When I got to Wilderness, it was the usual: strip, squat, give up your belongings. They are also permitted to go off-campus for recreational activities and outings with their peers. Larissa Jaye began her Life Coach training in 2007 and has been inspired by supporting people to achieve all sorts of lasting growth and transformation ever since. I was also threatened extended custody until the age of 21 which my parents had no intent or thought of doing. Greenbrier Christian Academy admits students of any race, color, nationality, or ethnic origin to all the rights, privileges, programs and activities of enrollment. It takes a lot of resiliency to navigate the social, academic and technological challenges our daughters face, but they can overcome it! says John. My hope is that I can have a lasting impact, no matter how small, on each student I get the privilege to work with.. ", Alicia has been with Greenbrier Academy for 8 years and become very appreciative of the relationality approach used here. Community meetings were used to shame girls under the facade of concern. This level typically lasts around 6 months. She was NOT at risk for alcohol or drug abuse . Dr. Slife is a clinical psychologist who is currently Professor of Psychology at Brigham Young University. Several years later she was able to share a touch of Costa Rica with her own students during an educational travel program. Indeed, according to the American Academy of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry, national suicide rates for Black youth aged 10 to 19 have climbed faster than any other racial or ethnic group in the past two decades. Dr. Noel Jewell and Physicians Assistant Theresa Sears of Seneca Health Services serve as Greenbriers psychiatric consulting team for medication management. Thank you for your continued support and understanding of our commitment to excellent care. Greenbrier Academy was similar to a reality tv show. He then left to create a new program. Before her start at GBA, Anne worked as a guide with the True North Wilderness Program in Vermont in 2008. Lionel (L-Jay) Mitchell is the Founder of the Greenbrier Academy for Girls. When I first arrived I was not allowed to speak to anyone other than my big buddy, and I had to finish a packet, including writing your life story, before l could join the group. After graduating, she was thrilled to continue working with horses and people, fostering that magical connection. I have seen some incredible outcomes due to the overall vision of our program., One of the greatest parts of this position is getting to see firsthand the changes made in the girls that pass through our doors says Alicia. i never will. 3, Pence Springs, WV 24962. Before joining Greenbrier Academy, Jacob spent over a decade in Fire-EMS and six (6) years as the southern district's lead trainer and recruiter for one of WV's largest providers of in-home health services. The girls were all afraid. What was not beneficial was not knowing how long I would be there, where I would be next, etc. I stood up to him. There I was forced to read it to complete strangers. All with the promise they will make your child into a happy and healthy normal person. One time I took a pepper from the fridge in the kitchen and I was written-up by staff, so my therapist called my parents with me, who had already bought me plane tickets home for Spring Break, and told them that I clearly could not follow rules and thus could not go home.
"); } Susie Blankenship has worked as an Administrator at Greenbrier since 2011. Her hobbies include; photography, reading, rock collecting, astronomy, writing poetry and short stories. My mom worked hard to get me to graduate early due to the dishonesty, and incompetence of the school and they still have not given my family money back for a trip I was supposed to go on. They then arrive at a small lodge called the Village where they get saged at the door and must sleep on the floor. She is a certified Wound Nurse as well as ACLS and PALS certified. She says, My life has been changed in so many positive ways working here at GBA that I have truly been blessed.. This level typically lasts about 4 months. Together with her husband, they have two dogs, three adult sons and now three grandsons, whom she adores! with L-Jay back in the 90s. The students are out of control and instead of trying to work with the students to find out how to help them and make everyone come together they just put up cameras and make things strict and take everything away. Lindsay has been a part of the Greenbrier community since 2016. They tied my wrists with zip-ties and put the child-lock on and explained rudely we could either take a plane or we can drive ten hours. She enjoyed being a role model to the girls so much that, after leaving in 2014 to care for her daughter, she returned to her position in 2017. A girl kissed me during truth or dare and ten girls told on me, so I was not allowed to go home for Christmas. Everything there was bizarre, amongst teachers and therapists and heads of school all being married or related, all part of a specific Mormon sect, and all from Utah. This is the biggest lie. The only other time would be over Skype, with your parents and therapist. The tuition is reported to be around $42,000 per year. It is under his sons name. Dr. Todd Woodward oversees our entire neurofeedback program at Greenbrier. Until I had a clean drug test show up, I was treated as if I was snorting pills. I love helping students understand the significance of their voice and the integral part they play in our school and community. She feels lucky to teach in such an amiable environment alongside her devoted and compassionate coworkers. These are the true therapists of the school and are the few people actually there to help your daughter. there was no therapeutic environment whatsoever rather constant drama and tension among both staff and students which created a huge distraction from treatment. She enters students into art contests at the local Carnegie Hall and promotes their involvement in the charity event Empty Bowls. She also accompanies her drumming performance group to local schools, churches, festivals and private events in the area. He and his wife Laura retired around 2015/2016. I was also told that they could be very convincing when it comes to parents and when my parents decided to pull me that they would have a talk with them. He then founded Greenbrier Academy in 2007 and has worked as the Director/Owner ever since. Find a Great First Job to Jumpstart Your Career. They take advantage of parents that would do anything for their children. By rejecting non-essential cookies, Reddit may still use certain cookies to ensure the proper functionality of our platform. Rachel has three children with her husband of thirty years. Kelly enjoys nothing more than seeing people and horses connect and build a relationship. Dr. Todd has successfully removed harmful medications from kids daily routines, while reducing or eliminating their associated symptoms. She taught Spanish for six years in Ohio where she also had earned a BA in Spanish with a history minor and a MA in education. When someone has experienced the trauma of adversity in their past relationships with others, it may be easier for them to develop a relationship with a horse who relates to them in the present moment. When I got to Wilderness, it was the usual: strip, squat, give up your belongings. They are also permitted to go off-campus for recreational activities and outings with their peers. Larissa Jaye began her Life Coach training in 2007 and has been inspired by supporting people to achieve all sorts of lasting growth and transformation ever since. I was also threatened extended custody until the age of 21 which my parents had no intent or thought of doing. Greenbrier Christian Academy admits students of any race, color, nationality, or ethnic origin to all the rights, privileges, programs and activities of enrollment. It takes a lot of resiliency to navigate the social, academic and technological challenges our daughters face, but they can overcome it! says John. My hope is that I can have a lasting impact, no matter how small, on each student I get the privilege to work with.. ", Alicia has been with Greenbrier Academy for 8 years and become very appreciative of the relationality approach used here. Community meetings were used to shame girls under the facade of concern. This level typically lasts around 6 months. She was NOT at risk for alcohol or drug abuse . Dr. Slife is a clinical psychologist who is currently Professor of Psychology at Brigham Young University. Several years later she was able to share a touch of Costa Rica with her own students during an educational travel program. Indeed, according to the American Academy of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry, national suicide rates for Black youth aged 10 to 19 have climbed faster than any other racial or ethnic group in the past two decades. Dr. Noel Jewell and Physicians Assistant Theresa Sears of Seneca Health Services serve as Greenbriers psychiatric consulting team for medication management. Thank you for your continued support and understanding of our commitment to excellent care. Greenbrier Academy was similar to a reality tv show. He then left to create a new program. Before her start at GBA, Anne worked as a guide with the True North Wilderness Program in Vermont in 2008. Lionel (L-Jay) Mitchell is the Founder of the Greenbrier Academy for Girls. When I first arrived I was not allowed to speak to anyone other than my big buddy, and I had to finish a packet, including writing your life story, before l could join the group. After graduating, she was thrilled to continue working with horses and people, fostering that magical connection. I have seen some incredible outcomes due to the overall vision of our program., One of the greatest parts of this position is getting to see firsthand the changes made in the girls that pass through our doors says Alicia. i never will. 3, Pence Springs, WV 24962. Before joining Greenbrier Academy, Jacob spent over a decade in Fire-EMS and six (6) years as the southern district's lead trainer and recruiter for one of WV's largest providers of in-home health services. The girls were all afraid. What was not beneficial was not knowing how long I would be there, where I would be next, etc. I stood up to him. There I was forced to read it to complete strangers. All with the promise they will make your child into a happy and healthy normal person. One time I took a pepper from the fridge in the kitchen and I was written-up by staff, so my therapist called my parents with me, who had already bought me plane tickets home for Spring Break, and told them that I clearly could not follow rules and thus could not go home.